Temple Sealing

Cayden,

On Saturday September 4, 2010 you were sealed to mommy and daddy in the Ogden Temple. You were such a sweet boy when they brought you in the sealing room. You kept saying "Mommy what are you doing?" and "Mommy what are you wearing?" The look on your face was simply wonderful. You help mommy's hand as the sealing said sweet things about you and told us all that you were sealed to mommy and daddy forever. I can't explain to tell you the joy that I felt when you were sealed to mommy and daddy. We both love you so much! You played in the nursery and loved the two workers that were in there. They got you dressed and ready and were so nice! I think you look so cute all in white!
This is our "forever family". I am so grateful to be able to be your mommy forever!
You LOVED looking at Angel Moroni. In fact you still talk about the Angel with the horn on the temple. You know have so many blessing because mommy and daddy made it to the temple. So many blessings that you more than deserve! I love you so much baby!
Love mommy

Adoption

Cayden,
I can't begin to tell you how happy I am. On August 17, 2010 your adoption was finalized in front of a very nice judge--who as you said "wears a black dress looking thing"-- who let mommy know how lucky she is to have such wonderful men in my live (you and daddy). I am SO grateful to have you in my life. You are my sunshine. You are what keeps me going and makes me smile. You are everything I have dreamed about for so long!

Papa was able to come and you sat with him most of the time and colored. You weren't very good at being quiet --no surprsies there-- and since everything was being recorded you needed to be.

I want you to know that without the love of your birth mother Jordan there is no way this would have been possible. You need to know that she loves you very much and in allowing me to adopt you she has fully shown that love. I hope that you will always show her the respect that she deserves. She is a wonderful person with a good heart. Life hasn't been easy for her and it breaks my heart that she has heart ache because of the situation. I will always and forever tell you about her, her love for you, and the great gift that she has given me.

Love Mommy

4th of July 2010

As we did last year we started the 4th of July off with pancakes at papa and Nana's house and then headed down the street for the parade. Last year I kept you in the stroller the whole time. This time however I believe you stood the ENTIRE time. You were really good and running out in the road to get candy when there weren't any floats coming. And you some times dashed out at the exact WRONG moment! Although everyone clapped for you, Mommy was scared to death.

Daddy locked his keys in the car that morning and we had to wait for uncle Daniel to get home from seeing uncle Josh and Aunt Nikki in South Dakota so we stayed at Nana's house ALL day long! This is the first year that you've like fireworks. Last year they scared you to death. This year I could barely keep you away from the big, very illegal ones that uncle Daniel brought home. Although you did do a roman candle or two. Sparklers were by far your favorite.
I'm so glad you like the 4th of July as much as I do. Can't wait for next year when we'll be able to share with your little baby!
Love Mommy

Little brother or sister

Cayden,
Your reaction to mommy having a baby in her belly has been THE BEST! You've told us that the baby needs to be a baby girl. When I ask why you want a baby girl the response you give makes me roll with laughter. "Because mommy, Jesus wants us to be nice and share but I don't like to share. So if it's a baby girl I won't have to share my toys, she will get her own!" SO CUTE! I sure do love you little mr.!
Love Mommy

4th of July

Although your first 4th of July wasn't exactly exciting or eventful it was a lot of fun. We spent the day at Grandma and Grandpa Shaw's house. We played games and just hung out. Daddy and uncle Matt went and bought some fireworks and later that night we went out in the street and lit them off. You slept during the fire works amazingly enough. Although we would have loved for you to see the fireworks we didn't want you scared.
Love your Birth Mother, Jordan

Mommy's Dream

Babies,
I just want you to know how much I love you. When you were first born I didn't know about you, at least not at first. About 6 weeks after I had baby Ally I had a dream, a dream that made me wonder so many things. In my dream I was sitting in a chair holding the most beautiful baby boy. I was so happy I couldn't stop smiling. I kept singing songs and kissing the baby's face. Right before my dream ended I said "As long as your living my baby you'll be." I woke up stunned. It didn't make sense that I would be holding a baby boy. I had just placed a baby girl for adoption, that would have made so much more sense had my dream been about a baby girl. I went back to sleep but didn't sleep well at all. The next day I couldn't stop thinking about the baby in my dream. Where was he, who was he, why did I need to be his mommy? So many questions and NO answers! For the next three weeks I had the same dream every single night. I realized that for whatever reason there was a little boy that needed me to be his mommy. I didn't know why but I knew I would, with time, become his mommy. My life went down a different path than I thought it would and I soon forgot about the baby boy in my dreams. Through hard times in life however Heavenly Father kept reminding me with dreams of the same beautiful baby boy. Right after I moved back home in October of 2008 I had what I called my baby dream for five weeks, every single night. I knew in my heart something had happened and that baby boy needed me to be his Mommy. I cried for many nights because I had no control over the situation. I didn't know where the baby boy was or how to find him. In January of 2009 I had the same dream again for 2 more weeks straight. I knew without a doubt that soon I would find my baby boy and I would be his mommy. In April of 2009 I found my baby boy!!! I met your daddy and we hit it off. Within days I met you and when I saw you for the first time I just about screamed with joy. I had found my baby boy. Every single time I looked at you I knew.... "As long as your living my baby you'll be." You soon became attached to me and started calling me mommy. Although Daddy and I tried desperately to get you to call me KK or something other than Mommy you wouldn't. In my heart I knew why. You are my dream baby. When I first saw baby pictures of you my heart skipped a beat. The baby in my dreams was, without a doubt you. I held you and rocked you in my dreams so many times. I knew you were there but didn't know how to find you. Oh baby I love you! I know that Heavenly Father prepared me to be your mommy. I can't imagine my life without you! I am SO very blessed to be able to be your mommy! Always remember.... "As long as your living my baby you'll be."
Love MommyThis is nearly exact to the baby that I saw in my dreams... you were all in white.

Pregnant with Cayden

Being pregnant with you was so easy. I ate alot of sour candy and hot foods when I was pregnant with you. You were such a good baby. I loved being pregnant with you!
Month 1 When I fisrt saw you in my tummy you looked just like a little peanut. Everyone that worked with me refered to you as Mr. Planters. They even offered to buy you a eyeglass, top hat, and cane. I cried the first time I saw you. It was so amazing to get to see such a little miricale growing in my tummy.
Month 3 Daddy talked to you all the time. He even tried to sing, but we all know daddy can't really sing.
Month 5 We watched alot of basketball, football, and soccer games with you in my tummy, and when everyone would cheer and get excited, you either got really excited or scared but either way you would kick and move like crazy. Everyone thought it was funny. We all knew you'd LOVE sports, we weren't wrong. Month 6 Most of the time I was pregnant I didn't realize I was pregnant... except for of course when my stomach got so big it got in the way. I made daddy put my shoes on my feet towards the end of being pregnant because I just couldn't do it anymore.
Month 8
Love your birth mom
Jordan