I just want you to know how much I love you. When you were first born I didn't know about you, at least not at first. About 6 weeks after I had baby Ally I had a dream, a dream that made me wonder so many things. In my dream I was sitting in a chair holding the most beautiful baby boy. I was so happy I couldn't stop smiling. I kept singing songs and kissing the baby's face. Right before my dream ended I said "As long as your living my baby you'll be." I woke up stunned. It didn't make sense that I would be holding a baby boy. I had just placed a baby girl for adoption, that would have made so much more sense had my dream been about a baby girl. I went back to sleep but didn't sleep well at all. The next day I couldn't stop thinking about the baby in my dream. Where was he, who was he, why did I need to be his mommy? So many questions and NO answers! For the next three weeks I had the same dream every single night. I realized that for whatever reason there was a little boy that needed me to be his mommy. I didn't know why but I knew I would, with time, become his mommy. My life went down a different path than I thought it would and I soon forgot about the baby boy in my dreams. Through hard times in life however Heavenly Father kept reminding me with dreams of the same beautiful baby boy. Right after I moved back home in October of 2008 I had what I called my baby dream for five weeks, every single night. I knew in my heart something had happened and that baby boy needed me to be his Mommy. I cried for many nights because I had no control over the situation. I didn't know where the baby boy was or how to find him. In January of 2009 I had the same dream again for 2 more weeks straight. I knew without a doubt that soon I would find my baby boy and I would be his mommy. In April of 2009 I found my baby boy!!! I met your daddy and we hit it off. Within days I met you and when I saw you for the first time I just about screamed with joy. I had found my baby boy. Every single time I looked at you I knew.... "As long as your living my baby you'll be." You soon became attached to me and started calling me mommy. Although Daddy and I tried desperately to get you to call me KK or something other than Mommy you wouldn't. In my heart I knew why. You are my dream baby. When I first saw baby pictures of you my heart skipped a beat. The baby in my dreams was, without a doubt you. I held you and rocked you in my dreams so many times. I knew you were there but didn't know how to find you. Oh baby I love you! I know that Heavenly Father prepared me to be your mommy. I can't imagine my life without you! I am SO very blessed to be able to be your mommy! Always remember.... "As long as your living my baby you'll be."
Love Mommy
This is nearly exact to the baby that I saw in my dreams... you were all in white.
